Simple Minded

I'm a simple minded person,
all I know is that I only wanna wish for simple things,
and nothing else more.

I just want to be cared and loved,
that's all I want and need.

I will still stay strong for everything,
and I will tolerate everything till the day I break down...

Man

Here's a song that I would like to share,

Chris Young The Man I Want To Be

God, I'm down here on my knees
Cause it's the last place left to fall
Beggin' for another chance
If there's any chance at all
That you might still be listenin'
Lovin' and forgivin' guys like me
I've spent my whole life gettin' it all wrong
And I sure could use your help cause from now on

I wanna be a good man
A 'do like I should' man
I wanna be the kind of man the mirror likes to see
I wanna be a strong man
And admit that I was wrong, man
God I'm asking you to come change me
To the man I wanna be

There's anyway for her and me to make another start
Could you see what you could do
To put some love back in her heart
Cuz' it going to take a miracle
After all I've done to really make her see

That I wanna be a statement
I wanna be a great man
I wanna be the kind of man that she sees in her dreams
God, I wanna be your man
And I wanna be her man
God, I only hope she still believes
In the man I wanna be

Well, I know this late at night that talk is cheap
Lord, don't give up on me

I wanna be a givin' man
I wanna really start livin' man
God, I'm asking you to come change me
To the man I wanna be



At times like this,
I just wish I knew what has God planned ahead for me,
and just what lies ahead.
Tough times build strong man,
that's what I hope...

Best is never enough

A nice cloudy Saturday morning,
when everything seems like a normal training day,
he went down to his usual traning place with a heavy heart,
but he knew he shouldn't and so he calm himself down in the car ride on the way there.

Upon reaching,
he felt much better when he saw his friends,
all cheering and laughing,
disturbing one another,
it was a very warm sight for him,
seeing all his seniors so close together.

Soon,
the time came,
he knew he wasn't very prepared,
but he was determined to just give all he's got.

He went down for the first time of the day,
feeling all his muscles still not warmed up enough,
but he didn't think much about it,
all he could think was to get it over it quickly.
The set started,
he was too relaxed,
but it was lucky to get through it.

After the first set was done and over with,
he just sat down and his mind went blank,
he didn't know what to think of,
and he don't wanna think about anything else either.

The second set came,
he knew it would be a tough fight,
worse of all,
he knew he was gonna be defeated,
what a weak mindset...
Nevertheless,
he has to still give his best he told himself,
he has a role to uphold and it is not easy for himself.

The command came,
and all boats went off,
it was not a bad start,
but it got more and more tiring for him,
soon his mind was switched off.

His partner,
his other half,
shouted for him,
he wanted to reply,
but he couldn't,
he just don't know why...
And when it all ended,
his other half asked him,
"did you truly give your best?"

That question really struck him hard,
he really thought to himself,
"did I give my best..."
He really didn't know the answer to it...

He went back up the shore,
he passed his cap to his other half,
wishing him all the best,
because he knew he was strong mentally and physically.
He was left alone to do his punishment,
but that was alright,
he preferred to be somewhere silent.

The ache and fatigue soon came in,
and he took a break,
sitting at the pavement,
he looked across the whole reservoir,
he thought to himself,
maybe this is not meant for him afterall...
And the best,
never seems enough for everything in life...

"Needles"

It was like a routine,
his life,
going to school,
seeing her a glance,
and going home.

But today,
everything felt so much more different.
He did not know why he felt so lethagic and restless today.
His head felt giddy,
his feet felt heavy,
and he could only sigh.

Getting home,
his only thought was to go get a bath quickly,
as his body was all sticky and sweaty.
As he turned on the water,
it did not felt as relaxing today,
but it was like needles pricking him,
all he felt was pain and nothing else.

It wasn't enjoyable at all today,
unlike yesterday,
so he turned off the tap,
but weird enough,
he still felt water droplets,
dripping down onto his chest.

At that instant he knew what was it that was dripping,
but he did not know why,
and he did not want to know why as well.
All he could tell himself was to stand up strong,
and never falter to anything in life,
not at all he should fall because of anything.

He then remembered what his friend once told him,
"Men sacrifices are never known to women,
and we have to bear with everything.
Just stand firm,
be strong,
and continue to live your life as per normal."

He felt that it was alittle unfair at first,
but he knew deep inside that it was the truth,
and perhaps it's also true that God has made us this way.
So he complied to it and never asked anything else more...

Droplets of thoughts

As he came home from yet another exhausting day,
the first thing he did was to lay his heavy load down on the floor,
and straight he went to take a bath.

Droplets of water came gushing down from his head,
flowing down his body,
and finally to his toes.
Today,
he decided to take a longer bath,
unlike his usually 5 minutes bath time,
as he just wanted to relax alittle more.

Feeling the gentle droplets landing on his scalp,
he began to close his eyes,
and then his cheeks elevated alittle,
and he smiled to himself.

All the thoughts went through his mind,
through that little amount of time,
all the thoughts that he could clearly remember and see,
it was so real to him that he could feel it in his heart.
He decided to stay in his thoughts just for a while longer,
but soon,
it was time to get back to reality.

He opened his eyes,
he continued to smile,
and told himself,
at least he had a wonderful life,
and he never regretted anything that he has done,
or has held before...

Measure of a man

How much can a man really take,
I really wonder at times.
Can he really stick by his words,
and perform his actions to fulfill all his promises and all that he've said?
Or does he falter in the course of his action,
and never be stand up again?

Man,
a funny thing,
we're suppose to be the one's who are good and strong at most stuffs,
but we're human afterall aren't we.
We're all the same,
with feelings and emotions,
BUT we just have to bear with it,
and be a true man.

It's not that hard being a real man,
if you really know what you're doing in your heart,
you just have to know you wanna give your best,
that's all.
The rest of it,
is not for us to decide...

Better in time

Will it all get better as the time goes by?
This is the question he keeps asking himself,
deep inside he know things might get worse,
but he did not have much of a choice,
as all he wants was the best for his girl.

He'll never give anything less than the best for his girl,
he'll never do anything to wrong his girl,
he'll love her unconditionly.

Now,
he wants to do so much,
yet he doesn't has the chance anymore.
Well,
thats life isn't it?
Once you've lost something,
you'll start to think about it,
and learn of its' importance.

Her sweet voice,
her pretty face,
her warm hugs,
her cute personaility,
and never the least her undivided love she showered upon him.

How much he misses all of these...
But he can't show this out,
and he'll have to be a man,
and stay strong for all he stood for.

He just prays and hope for many things that might come his way,
be it for the better,
for the worst,
or just some comfort that he can find within himself to calm himself down.

The songs,
the melodies,
all he could hear was these,
and nothing else...